On Sunday 22 May I opened the Hive, hoping against hope that by now a Queen had been born and mated. But that's not what I found. I found only a blob of wax remaining from the Queen cells and no trace of Queen or eggs.
How to describe the feeling that washes over you as you declare "That's it, it's all over, we're finished"? There's such a multitude of mixed emotions you have to process - despair - I'm a failure; I'll just give up; absolute powerlessness; utter dejection.
How odd then, that it has been the cats who have (indirectly) encouraged me to find hope.
They have been having trouble with an interloper - a stray tom who is bullying both of them. So they love it when I spend time with them in the garden - it helps them feel safe while they take time to establish their scent on all the plants. And also, the amble down the garden path with both of them has been a wonderful addition to my evenings.
So on Saturday, I spent some time just sitting and watching the bees - something I haven't done in a while. Bumble and Phoebe sat quietly with me. They're amazing - they'll chase (and catch) every other insect under the sun, but not the bees. Some primordial instinct warns them off; they will sit and watch the bees coming in and out of the hive entrance, engrossed. But they won't touch 'em. Clever kitties!
And as I watched, I could see more and more bees coming in with pollen on their legs. I was surprised; convinced the hive was dying, surely they wouldn't be bringing in protein to feed babies?
You know that feeling when you're in a dark, dark place and that first flicker of candle light sparks? It felt just like that ...
I checked them out yesterday afternoon again. Again, no eggs, no sign of new life at all.
Except - I saw a Queen!
I don't know, I don't know - she wasn't laying, she had a little dent on her thorax, she was running around like an ordinary bee. But She was a Queen, without a doubt.
A Queen!
I declare, I had to sit down and take a breath. It was wonderful. I almost don't know what to think anymore.
A Queen!
After thinking for a bit, it occurred to me that all their frames are filled, filled, filled with honey and pollen. They haven't made way for empty cells at all, and they still keep bringing in pollen. So this is what I did:
I gave them space. I placed the old National brood box, filled with empty drawn honeycombed frames on top of the new brood box. And then I tenderly closed everything up and went and sent up a little prayer to all the gods in heaven.
Send up your prayers, folks. All may well not be lost just yet.
I'm still keeping the faith
xxx